Sunday, February 22, 2009

Gained on Purpose

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That seven pound loss last week was amazing, but unsettling. Too much weight, at least I thought. So this week I ate more. I can’t say it bothered me to eat more to gain weight – for the first time in my life. I hoped for +/- two pounds and it ended up at 2.2 pounds up for the week. I weighted 180.8 this morning. Now I can back off and slowly get down to goal at 178. I’m in no rush to get to goal – I’m more in a rush to be healthy and feel good. By the beginning of this past week I felt “weak-ish,” like under fed or something and seven pound at 180 is a lot different than seven pounds at 240. The crappy weather isn’t a great help – if it were midsummer I probably wouldn’t have noticed. Oh well, but I’m feeling good about where I am.

Active, fun day ahead and work has be BUSY!

Have a great week!
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Sunday, February 15, 2009

A Weird But Wonderful Weigh-In

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I had a very “interesting” week; quite tumultuous, to say the least. Consequently I missed a few meals – I went almost a day and a half without eating at one point. So when I got on the scales this morning I weighed 178.6! I was very surprised, to say the least – oh, and yes, I tried several times to make sure! Needless to say, the Weight Watchers web site yelled at me, but I don’t care! I feel great and I’ve learned a lot.

What’s wrong with being hungry? Why am I so driven by it – almost afraid of it? I often I wonder if it’s really true hunger I that I feel or just psychological need or emptiness. During the past week, when my mind was elsewhere and I went many hours without eating, I never experienced hunger. HUH! Quite a lesson for me. To top off the experience, I heard a Dr. Dean Edell radio moment in which he said that older people need to practice additional self control in calorie consumption in order to maintain a healthy weight. Well, I’ve spent a few days thinking about this and I realized something important. Okay, I’ve lost quite a bit of weight, backed by a strong inner motivator – so now what? The only answer is self control and discipline. There’s no magic or thrill or people asking, “Are you losing weight?” I’m no longer the ‘new’ me, I’m the normal, everyday me. So, in actuality, the work starts now. There’s no break, it will take constant vigilance, one day at a time. This is a great thing! My mindset has become different over the last half year – I really believe having discipline and self control in my life is very beneficial – it’s now a total package. The properly maintained weight gives me a better shot at a longer healthier life – the discipline needed helps build a healthier psyche. How cool is that?

I wanted to update you on the pedometer. I love it! It’s always somewhere in the back of my mind to not only add steps, but aerobic steps! I think it’s played a big part in my new weight loss and sense of discipline. This is from last week:

Have a great week!
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Sunday, February 8, 2009

Well, well, well…

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It had to happen sometime. The cold winter drags on – carbohydrates, like the Sirens in "The Odyssey", calling me in the evening… Okay, I’ll cut the crap; I weighed 185.8 this morning, a big shock indeed. What can I say – time to call up the reserves in self control – I don’t mind a static week or a little gain – but this was more than I bargained for. Oh well, it’s a long road with peaks and valleys – I’ve had it all downhill for months – it’s good for me to see that it’s precarious state and calls for vigilance at all times. Damn it, I love how I feel and look – I’ll not give it all back for some stupid pretzels!

Have a great week!
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Sunday, February 1, 2009

The Moment You Have Been Waiting For!!! ;-)

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Drum roll please! This morning my weight, as read on the Tanita HD334*, is 182.6!

*The Tanita HD334 is the official scale of the "My Final Weight Loss Blog"

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In all seriousness, this is good. I'm down to losing one pound a week, which was my goal. Winter is perfect for that - I'm lethargic and cold. Man, I guess it's age or loss of body fat, but I'm really feeling the cold weather this year!

I had a mini-binge last night - and I don't care! Don't worry, I'll explain... I was sorta chilled all day and I hadn't eaten a lot anyway. After dinner I felt cold and empty. Then, my brain, which can't remember anything else, remembered an old bag of animal crackers I spotted left over from the last time my daughter was over and spent the night. Well, I ate a bunch of them. Yep, and I felt a little better. I guess, in a way, that's what I needed at that time. I'm not worried because I know I can't do that all the time, I won't do it tonight, or again for a while. I've worked too damned hard to lose the fat, I feel too good now that I'm at my proper weight to start the nightly ritual of stuffing my cake-hole.

HMMM - I just realized - it must have bothered me - I just wrote a big paragraph about it, and the more I wrote the more emphatic I became. Weird. I like this blog...
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